learning a new language seems easy. not a computer language by the way, i am talking about languages like english, german, chinese or something. the real problem isn’t learning, it is thinking. if you can’t think in english, you can’t speak it right like me. i am following this pattern when i speak english:
- think in turkish,
- speak but not loudly, in your brain.
- when you catch “oh, it’s a good sentence.” thought, translate it to english, in your brain again.
- say it.
but it is wrong and unnatural. and i don’t know what to do. everybody says “you need some practice” but what if i don’t have a chance to speak with somebody? actually, i think this is my biggest problem to find a job in countries except turkey.
my game development adventure is over, i can’t do it. game development isn’t for me and i learned it from hard way but it’s ok. at least i learned some c# and unity, i can answer some questions if someone ask.
and it isn’t only thing that over. my hopes about this country -which is turkey- is over too. i will go with front-end development.
there is too much voice in my head. i should do/learn everything, according to that voices but i can’t. i am trying to learn game development one day, trying to learn blender/3d design another day. i shouldn’t do this.
nevermind. i have just a one thing in my hands: front-end development. i will try to improve my front-end skills.
i’m becoming hopeless about game development because i didn’t look anything like 4 days. learning new things can be hard but i’m trying you know. i didn’t give up yet and i won’t. so, here is an idea: i don’t know will you remember this but there was a game that played with a circle ball. no, not bounce. i made a little search on internet and found it: “ballance”. i will make something like that. yes, i will. or, i don’t know; lets say maybe.
i went to holiday last week. you know what, working is sucks. there is too much place that you have to explore. “look, there was a living people in here 2400 years ago but nothing now. so, you will die one day. why you spend a lot of time to working?”
pff, never mind. holiday is over, so… “hello darkness, my old friend.”
well, i’m trying to learn c# and unity together. actually, unity has a ”unity learn” web page for beginners which is awesome because you don’t need anything else but there is a little problem about… i don’t know, i guess about me. i feel like i can’t learn to code in unity unless there is a real project. maybe i will make monthly game challenges that i create small games in the coming days. i don’t know.
yes, i get it. web 3.0 is good thing am i right? anybody can create content about everything. look at wikipedia, twitter, youtube, facebook… i mean, there is a lot of social media platforms that you can create content in it which is ok because “free speech ;)” but i am tired. people are so mean and i don’t want to read them like used to be. i am scared now you know? i am afraid to write a tweet about my thoughts on global warming or learning new programming languages or something. communication should have been a good thing but it isn’t.
oh, nevermind. like i said, “hello world. i should write a microblog because there is nobody to write a bad comment in here.”